Praying

This is a very private post, but I feel the need to document what is going on for my own personal reasons.

Yesterday afternoon I started spotting and I've been having some mild lower back pain.  I'm absolutely sick to my stomach, and I'm not sure if it's nerves from the possibility of miscarrying or if it's just good 'ol morning sickness.  I don't remember having this problem with Marissa or Dylan, at least not this early.  I did have a pretty scary event with Dylan around 24ish weeks where I started bleeding but that was apparently due to my low lying placenta/partial previa that later corrected itself.

I'm really frustrated that out of 3 OBs I called in my area, not a single one will give me a sonogram at 6 weeks 1 day, unless I want to go to the Emergency Room.  I know it is earlier than "normal" to have a sonogram but I feel that it could give us a lot of answers.  

I am going to see the midwife today at 2:00.  I'm not sure what the plan forward is, possibly draw blood to see if my betas are doubling.  I just really want to know what is going on.  

I'm trying to stay positive but I just have a bad feeling about everything.  

Here's to praying everything is alright.